Midnight Thoughts

Gala Dinner HIMAPER Kabinet Carpe Diem berarti berakhirnya kepengurusan Kabinet Carpe Diem tahun 2016-2017. Aku adalah salah satu anggota Medinfo. Ya kerjanya tidak jauh dari ngedesain, ngepost, dan ngehandle media sosial HIMAPER. Nah, tema Gala Dinner kali ini adalah Fancy Black and Red Pertama aku datang, teman-teman aku menggunakan dress yang super duper fancy dan so pretty, I can't even ugh. Just. So. Pretty.  So kali ini aku didandani oleh teman aku Ika. (Merci Beaucoup Ika!) Aku mengenakan kemeja hitam, dan rok span batik, serta hijab berwarna light cream. I'm so sad that I forgot to take a picture of me alone. But here are some of the euphoria pictures of The Gala Dinner. Overall style-ku di Gala Dinner dan Kepala Departement Kak Chaca (Di tengah) dan Zara si Designer Himaper Medinfo Himaper (Minus Kak Sharah dan Kak Rama) Me with the Gorgeous Laras (Her Skirt is cute) Kahim dan Wakahim Carpe Diem.  Tim Humas  ...

I can be cold-hearted like Pluto and so warm like Mercury.  I have the beauty of  Venus  and full of life like Earth.  But oh dear,  Life is not going to be everyday happiness  and all-night sadness.   I give hope like Mars for sure  and hold the ring of kindness like Saturn does.  I am the universe myself  I was made of galaxies  and shooting stars.  Everyone has their dark side, right?  That's why I keep a black hole inside of me.    But I promise you, I'll live happily like the sun.  Pinterest

It's November and everyday is raining. (well, Almost.) Siapa sih yang tidak suka melihat sweater-sweater lucu dan ankle boots, dan scarf untuk menghangatkan lehermu dan...dan...dan... Indonesia kan negara tropis, masa harus ke Tangkuban Perahu dulu untuk mengenakan sweater favorit biar tidak salah kostum. Thank God It's November di mana kamu bisa mengenakan sweater tanpa merasa salah kostum! So aku bakal kasih beberapa mix and match sweater yang bisa kamu gunakan buat hang-out bareng teman atau kuliah. 1. Maroon Sweater It's me! Ini adalah sweater favoritku karena aku cuma beli dengan harga Rp.100.000,- di  H&M  . Seperti biasa H&M yang selalu memberika sale hingga 70% atau buy 2 get 1, makanya aku bisa dapet sweater yang super comfy ini dengan harga murah. That's why this Swedish clothing brand always be my favorite. Aku mengenakan cotton wide leg pants dari  Zalora  yang aku beli ditahun 2016 (if I'm not mistaken) jadi aku lupa harganya ber...

Dia Marlina, ada laut yang tenang di dalam namanya, tersemat di antara kunyahan sirih di mulutnya. Marlina, hidup sendiri dengan jasad suaminya. Setiap hari dia memeluk cintanya, ketabahannya sekuat geraman rahangnya. Dia Marlina, dengan lentik jari yang membunuh dalam empat babak. Yang membelai seorang bayi dengan jari yang sama. Aku menemukan Marlina dalam diriku, bersemayam entah di bagian jantung yang mana. Dia Marlina, memekikkan suara perempuan sepertinya, ketika tubuhnya tak lagi kuat menahan sakitnya, saat napasnya terengah-engah agar didengar. Keringatnya telah membasuh semua ketakutannya. Aku menemukan Marlina lain, tergores di setiap wajah perempuan yang kutemui. Aku mendengar mereka berteriak, hingga akupun ikut berteriak, untuk Marlina. Puisi ini saya persembahkan untuk para Marlina di muka bumi ini, yang mengharap keadilan ditegakkan dengan kaki mereka yang gemetaran.  #AkuMarlina

Her eyes are so bright like summer's sky but her skin is too pale like winter. Her name Summer, been living in this wicked world with a lot of things happened to her. But she'll learn, she's a fighter, she's a lover. The freckles on her cheeks may not be enough to count all of the day she had been going through without a new scar. She's not a model sized girl. She's quite tall with a light ash brown wavy hair falls perfectly on her back. She might has some darker color under her eyes, because she prefers watching a night sky rather than sleeping or she is just going to cry until dawn. There is no different. She learns to love someone, she's a lover, like I said before. But maybe she was not meant to be loved. "How could the perfect happiness came from the tears of our eyes?" She asked one day, she is still trying to find the answer. She is the seasons herself, sometimes she is so cold like winter and the next day, she is so cheerful like ...

I know it's not my very best of all, but I made it because I can't stop thinking about Harry Styles . Yes The Harry Styles. Please enjoy She closed the door of her room as I watched her walking out of our shared flats. We're just bestfriends and never hit on each other. We pulled pranks but never kissed. We cuddled through our favorite movies marathon but never fuck.  Once she cried because she saw me smoking and I asked her why. "It killed my father and I don't wanna lose you because of it. You're the only one I've got." She said.  I never touch that damn thing anymore. She'd been more quiet than before. That when I knew I have to give her more space. I followed her to where she wanted to go. She went upstairs. To the rooftop of our buildings.  She lit one of it. Menthol I believe, that she said she loved the smell of peppermint in my breath.  "Why?" i asked her. "I think One day I'll jump from this." She said. ...

Aku bertanya pada hujan, "apakah tidak sakit ketika kau jatuh?" Ia menjawab, "tidak, karena aku akan kembali kepada-Nya."