Midnight Thoughts

  Do you remember the last day of 2019 and how you screamed that 2020 will be your best year? All the dreams and hopes you fight for will come true. You tried to make it happened and you work so hard for it. Sometimes you lose some sleep, had an argument or two with your close ones, lose your appetite or your wallet was very incorporate with you. You fight so hard to make your dreams come true. And then, 2020 happened. Or happening since it’s still going on. The flooded in Jakarta, a wildfire in Australia, your hero died (may Kobe and Gigi Bryant are in peace). And then suddenly, this pandemic forced you to stay home. Some of you might stuck in your rented room all by yourself. You feel like everything is not going well. You couldn’t celebrate your graduation ceremony, some of you couldn’t even work on your thesis and everything seems to get worse day by day. You can probably talk about this all day long and you won’t finish until midnight. So, you tried to find

Beware because in this part you will find how you make me feel after all this time. What do you mean that I don’t love you anymore? After all these days with you, laughing and watching movies from Mr. Bean to Tom & Jerry. And gosh, how much we hate those horror movies, w he re all the ghosts look fake but we still are afraid of them. Don’t you dare to say that I forget the taste of your favorite food? I can even remember the smell of it. How you always stole a piece or two from my plate, but I let you anyway because it wasn’t my favorite food. I just loved to see you eat it. Wait, I should say, I still and will always love to see you happy eating your favorite food. I can tell you this. You left a big part of you in my days in the future, in some of the clothes that I choose to wear. Something black or grey t-shirt. You left a little bit in my choice of food. In the movies and books, I read. And in some kindness that I never realized I just adopted from you. How t