It's Okay



 Do you remember the last day of 2019 and how you screamed that 2020 will be your best year? All the dreams and hopes you fight for will come true. You tried to make it happened and you work so hard for it. Sometimes you lose some sleep, had an argument or two with your close ones, lose your appetite or your wallet was very incorporate with you. You fight so hard to make your dreams come true.

And then, 2020 happened.

Or happening since it’s still going on.

The flooded in Jakarta, a wildfire in Australia, your hero died (may Kobe and Gigi Bryant are in peace). And then suddenly, this pandemic forced you to stay home. Some of you might stuck in your rented room all by yourself. You feel like everything is not going well. You couldn’t celebrate your graduation ceremony, some of you couldn’t even work on your thesis and everything seems to get worse day by day.

You can probably talk about this all day long and you won’t finish until midnight.
So, you tried to find some motivation from your social media. You watch tons of videos on how to keep motivated during this time. You try to learn new things, whatever it is! Cooking, drawing, working out so you can get your body goals, watching movies you haven’t got a chance to watch last time, gardening, baking another cookie, painting with new tools, reading your old books, learning new languages or simply downloading Duolingo again and picking up where you left before. You write, journaling, singing, or making a song, joining a webinar. You have done everything, and everything turns into new boredom.

“Hey, you should watch this!” Said your friend. And you just replied with “Whoa, interesting, thanks!” but never look it up again because you are just tired of these new routines. So, you end up scrolling through your Instagram and watch other people Instagram stories and a thought comes to your mind.

How lucky they are, still have some jobs to do.
Oh look, they are so sweet together spending time with their pets or their loved ones.
How cool they are catching up on new skills.  

Somehow, everyone’s lives seem much more interesting than yours. You’re starting to think that you are not good enough. That you’re just a piece of lazy potato who spends their time sleeping all day and scrolling through their phones.

But, don’t you remember that this time everyone is facing a hard time? And you don’t have to feel bad for yourself just because you couldn’t cope up with things lately. You did a great job by staying alive. By making sure you eat your foods and stay sane.
It’s okay to lay down all day or doing nothing.

You are great, 

you are fine.



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