Midnight Thoughts

I met you when I was eighteen. Everything could happen in your eighteen of age. But, I don't know your story, so I'll tell you mine. In eighteen, I broke someone's heart. I laughed on the first day and cried on the next day. Eighteen weeks after that, I chose you to be my heartbreaker. Maybe someone who could break my heart next. You did. A couple times, hundreds. I counted. But, that's okay because I blew them away once you blew those blueberry juicy smoke to my lips. You broke my heart. Again. Mais, ton sourire moqueur... s'est emparè de mon ceour... But, your pretty smile captured my heart.  Connecting the pieces one by one. I have loved you since I was eighteen. I have fallen for you since our little rendezvous, and I won't stop since then.

Once my father told me, if I ever feel empty I should fill my heart with kindness and calmness will comes towards me. Once I saw you smoking your lungs out, I told you to stop and you blew even more smoke. The smell of the cigars filled the room. "This is how I fill emptiness," You said, You were right. You filled the emptiness of the room. But your eyes reminds empty. You wanted to cry but even the tears won't fill them. You've going through a lot of pain. I see it from yout scars

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